想必中文信息比较能表达我此时此刻的心情.
and sorryy to those who are unable to read chinese..
my apologies..

all along,
是我太傻吗? 太笨吗? 太容易相信他人?

所以才有这个令人心疼无比的难忘回忆吧…

- 常常想起初那甜蜜的恋爱..
1) I take care of u cos u don noe take care urself. I don say to every ger. I only say tat to ger tat is wat I think she is.;) and tat is special and diff ba.:$
2) If you don sleep then I will be in ur mind running ard. Lol; or call my little fairy to stay beside u.
3) So tat u will not forget me ma. Haha. Of cos I don mind. If u don mind me stay with u haha. Then can take care of u le. Haha. And make sure u eat;) lol.
4) Baby u reach home le mah?:) I finally have u le :-* if too tired then take mc ok. Im now missing u again. Lol. Love u.
1) Baby so late then reply. make me worry lor. Tot u dun wan me le. :’( lol I didn’t take my breakfast. Haha. I only saying and love my baby more lor. Im also tired but is worth cos I have u le.
2) Dun worry babyJ I will always be with u de.
3) Sorry baby. Cos I wan u settle down quick. I think I miss u a lot baL later get some rest ok. Cant wait to see u.
4) Baby I don feel regret. I have this feelin to dote u and love u more:)
5) Don worry baby. I will alway be with u. unless u don wan me. U have my assurance.
6) Baby I love u. I noe u r tired and unhappy of some thing.
7) Im ok. L8r worry of u. I wan u to noe I care and love u. don hide any feeling from me.

And the deadly msg came in..
‘I think we just be fren ba. I not prepare. Sorry’

是我太任性吗? 太霸道? 不可理欲?
所以他才选择了离开?

当初也是他给予我承诺, 而, 现在, 提出分手也是他..

你可以说我是笨蛋, 是傻瓜, 因为直到现在, 我仍然还抱着充满希望地等待他回到我的身边. 我真的真的舍不得, 不想不在他的身边, 陪伴着他, 爱着他, 照顾他.

当我不知不觉地以为我们是世界上最幸福的恋人时, 他却提出了分手这两个字眼.

心如刀割的我, 变得不知所措. 自从当天, 不知为何, 我已仿佛失去了自我, 整个人都心神不安, 七上八下. 常常心不在焉, 睡不安, 但, 也许是因果关系, 我的食欲变得大于失. 他经常喂我吃, 要我把身子照顾好, 所以就算分手了, 我还是想为他做点什么事之类的.

Mr Rick 说过, 当你真正的爱一个人, 你是会毫无保留的爱护她, 照顾她, 怜惜她, 宠爱她, 疼爱她, 而不是, 对她有种种想改变她的想法与概念, 要她成为你心目中的女神.

是我要求太过火吗? 我只求一个能爱我一生一世的另一半. .

i miss u so and the happy moments we had spent together.