when i was looking at the photo in my wallet, i realized that this whole week, i haven been going down to office. if you would ask me why, i would say that i am sick. and thats the truth. dunno what is happening to my body recently. there is a urge of vomiting and stomach gas, and occasional fever.

energy had been depleting for me. i felt horrible and terrible. on wed, there is a sudden chest pain. i feared, that days might not be good for me. i worry for something bad.

and till yesterday, when ibu called, i think i have got the reason.

it may have got into my subconscious mind that i am sick so that i can escape from reality. the reality of pain from everyone. be it stress from managers or tasks by uplines. and i am dumb enough not to realise it. i just let it take over my mind and be sick for the whole week.

as a result, i wasted my own week being sick and not having appts.

while thinking of this dumb mistake, i felt better. reallyy better.

its just 心理作用.