was intending to rest today till J called. didnt really want to meet him as was feeling tired. told BEN about what J had told me. and shortly after that, BEN appeared under my house. was pretty stunned and didnt expect it. went to meet him and he brought me to Sentosa for dinner. had a chat there. my decision is: to let things stay the way it is now.
i really dun wish to get back into a relationship whereby it might hurt me just the way it had done to me earlier. perhaps, i should go into a new relationship with J instead.
the feeling of being sought after isn't that great afterall.